Skin diseases are horrible

Skin diseases are terrifying the patient and of course the medical students. To patient, it causes debilitating symptoms and it's disfiguring as well, obviously!!!. But for medical student like me, it's a nightmare especially when it comes out in the exam. Not that I am not trying to be sympathetic. I am, really really!!!

I've just read a topic on Bullous pemphigoid. Seriously, the name itself is a Greek to me, let alone the pathogenesis or maybe the treatment (The priority of patient's concern).

I recalled a bedside where a lecturer of mine brought us to a patient who had multiple blisters on her skin. It was intimidating. I had no diagnosis to offer except Herpes infection and Chicken Pox (anyways, chicken pox is caused by herpes virus too).

So, what i did was... trying to avoid my lecturer's stare as that was an acceptable reason for him to ask. Finally, my friend was all he got to be tortured. ROFL!!!

The next bedside, i voluntarily brought the group to a patient of mine with multiple skin lesions. It was all over his body and to tell u the truth, describing it was a REAL ouch! The patient was really nice. He gave me opportunity to examine and re-examine him a few times. Then, when the diagnosing part came, i did pretty well by given few diagnoses which were mindly sound.

Then my lecturer proceeded to management. Gosh! it was the time when he caught me. MUTE NOW!!! (The inner me said)

Longing for a real logbook!

Today, i have just finished correcting the 'mistake' that i've done for the past weeks. Believe it or not, i have lost my logbooks for the second time. It was a disastrous experience especially after knowing the real value of logbook nowadays.

The first 'lost but not found' incident was 2 weeks back, if I'm not mistaken. I have no slightest idea where did i lose it. Did i abandon it somewhere in the ward, or in the library... or wherever. So, the next days, i was questioned by my lecturer about the logbook.

My answer was " Saya tertinggal la Doctor. Can i get u signature on the next class?" Surely, lecturers would understand and, a nod i'd get.

But later, realization hit me. I could not stay in this condition any longer. I need to do something. So, later i decided to photocopy my friend's. The product was hideous but still it was acceptable. Then, to get the signatures, i went up and down to look up for lectures and begging them to re-sign it.

I thought after the first horrible incident, i was saved till the end of the posting. But, as Malaysians say 'Malang tak berbau', sooner (less than a week) i lost the photocopied version too. It was terrifying. Firstly, i had the impression that i still have it in my room, inundated by my unread and dust-covered books. But, last nite after looking at every inch of my room... I became realistic and believed that i've lost it again.

Guess what, i need to proceed to another 'photocopy-erase-fill it up-beg for signature' mission.


So these were people who helped in bringing the second photocopied version of my logbook in to reality:
1. Nasrun - Borrowed his
2. Raja - Borrowed her liquid paper
3. Fikri - Loaning his printer a.k.a photocopy machine a.k.a scanner
4. Naim - giving his idea to make me re-photocopy
5. Kak Ann - borrowing her liquid paper (masa pinjam Raja punya, x siap lagi)
6. Aje - his idea made me realize that hospital got a HospiMart with photocopy machine.

A creepy elevator!

Remember the moments when u were in an elevator... Was it good or it did spook you? I'm not saying to be alone in an elevator (Needless to say, it would scare you to death especially when u are talking about middle of the night, and hospital some more). What i meant was being in a lift with someone who is half stranger and half friend.

i have few of those moments which i would never consider to have it again in the future. But, like it or not, it will happen no matter what!

I recalled an incident when i was taking the elevator with a junior of mine. we were at the 11th floor and we were heading to the 3rd, only 2 of us. It was a real awkward moment for me, and surely his too.

So, after the elevator descended few floors, i could not stand the awkwardness anymore. So, hastily i asked him "Which posting are u in now?" (it's the commonest question when a senior meets his/ her junior as to murder the eccentric moment). But the embarrassing part was, we were asking the same question together, at the same time.

It clearly showed that he was not good at handling silence too. Then, as the question came, both of us, again answered together. Gosh!

So, when the door opened and freed us, i strode as fast as i could to avoid another horrible moment. But, we did bid good bye though. Anyways, he is a good junior. Always is!

The second incident was when i took the elevator with my lecturer. Then, i had nothing to say. "Hello is a bit short" i thought. So i decided to stay mum. She decided to entangle us from the awkwardness. So she started with the ordinary and overly used question. " What posting are u in now?" Obviously she could use the sentence since i could not ask her that. It was not fair.

So i decided to timidly answer the question and asking for God to make the elevator move faster or maybe hoping for someone to come and join us. Gosh!

An ustaz with his messages!

Last Friday, we had a session with an Ustaz. The whole clinical students were invited to come and listen to the most awaiting Ceramah ever entitled ' Persediaan Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan'. The whole session was a success in my view. Even, less than expected students had showed up but still it was a good one

Here i would to thank those individuals involved in bringing this Ceramah in to reality (Ceh! Ceh!) First out of all, the ceramah was so indispensable since Ramadhan is just aorund the corner. And, it is not something simple or according to the Ustaz, it is not just hunger and thirst. It's more than that, valuable, I must say.

So, Muslims have to have a ready sign on their forehead before the Month comes. Medical students are included.

The ustaz reminded us that, no matter what. Solah has to come first. It has to be meticulously performed to ensure that other Ibadah will be accepted by Allah. That was his Take Home Message!

So thankful!!!

We recently received a package which was given hand-to-hand kind of way. It was a package of presents from our buddies in Japan.

wow! So thoughtful of them. Seriously! Boys got a present each. I mean, maybe it was a simple gift from them but, it was simply sweet!

I got a chop stick and a game... I don't know what the name is. And the chop stick was so special since it has explanatory note with it (of course it's written in Japanese). Anyways, i still could understand the picture dowh!

Arigato!!

uuuuuhhh!! A great scent!

When i stepped in to my house, my nostrils caught a great smell which definitely a mouth-watering one. Then, i was thinking, maybe my housemates (who are, so far not good cooks themselves) cooked something decent that might make me considering to beg them!

But, there they were... staring at their PC monitor. Kitchen looked tidy and there was no sign of cooking. Then, realisation came; It's your neighbour! Thus, there was no chance for me to taste the food which emitted a great smell.

Then, after finishing the house chores (sweeping, mopping and washing), i was again amused by a great scent which i thought, emitted by a favorite food of mine....

huhuhuhu. Yummylicious!

Racist has no place here!! Seriously!

When i was about to enter Mc Donald the other day, my eyes caught something calming before me. It was a scene (mcm muvie plak) where there were 2 kids playing in front of the restaurant. The first kid was an Indian and the other one was Malay with the latter holding balloons. The 2 of them were engaging in a lengthy conversation about balloons.

I smiled and was so touched by the incident. Perhaps, it is not something huge for u. But, i do consider such thing as gigantic. 2 kids from different culture and perhaps religion, put those factors aside and merge the sameness that they were having into one. I believe they do share the same interest in balloons and that mattered. That put them in the same 'group'.


I could not really hear word by word they were saying, but they looked so happy together. It's obviously deducible that anyone, including those kids, can unite. Forget the differences but concentrate on the similarities.

As we all understand, racial issue is so darn sensitive and this matter should not be brought up or disturbed as to ensure the harmony of the country continues. It's so difficult to make people believe that being Malaysian means we are Malaysians, not Malays, Indians, or Chinese instead.

So, it's just an observation of an eye who wants to see Malaysia as a perfect place to live in! SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN

Hey I'm here....

My blog went on for 2 days without any new post. Aniwei, it's not a big deal. I wanted to post 1 or 2 posts, but i did not bring my laptop along to shah alam.

Saturday, 16 August 2008:
The three of us; Faiz, Ainul and I went to hospital for a Poyo session. We wanted to have a short practice on clinical thingy. So, like we planned, the 3 of us had to clerk 3 patients from 3 different disciplines. I had to clerk paeds patient, Faiz deposited in Surgical ward and Ainul, posted to Cardiac ward. So, after an hour or so, we were supposed to meet up again and present the cases and later visit the patient to look up for positive findings.

But, later. the plan changed when i stumbled upon my professor in the ward. He was having round with his subordinates (sounds cool huh?). So i text the other 2 of my Group-study mates to come over and join the round. We followed till 12 p.m and it meant that we had to stay after lunch and resume our first plan. Aniwei, the round was so beneficial. We did learn a lot, indeed.

We met all kinds of patients including:
1. Post-scarlet fever with flaking rashes
2. Dextrocardia. Gosh! That was my first experience touching the heart beat on the right side
3. a syndromic patient with an unknown diagnosis. We did suggest one diagnosis dowh. H3O.
4. And a lot more.

Then, before the afternoon session, i had a short nap. I practically made an artificial rash on my face whilst sleeping on the table and pressing over my forehead. T
The real session started 20 minutes after 2. Then, we had a great discussion.

We closed the session on that day with WAFFLES. I bought 2 whereas the 2 of them were only satisfied with one.

Blogging is so addictive!!

I love to comment my friends on their severe inclination to PC games. I think, to some extent, they do waste time by spending hours of playing the same game. Owh yeah! Forgot to mention, I'm not a Game lover myself. Don't get me wrong. Not that i repulse that particular fun activity... It's just that, I'm a loser. So, instead of confessing i'm the lousiest player ever, i better say that game is wasting time.

Okay! Okay! Please don't beat about the bush!! Let's go back to my original post's title. It says HOLLA!! BLOGGING IS ADDICTIVE! Yeah it's true. It happens to me at least. When i switch on my laptop, i start to look up for ideas and issues to be written in my blog! But, sometimes i manage to resist the temptation since i got some errands to run or maybe some study to be done

usually in the middle of the study process, i tend to read as quick as i possible to finish the subject. Once its done, i hurriedly log in to my blog and start to pour my feelings out!! later, i'll find my self staring at my laptop for hours, exactly like my friends, playing games!

It's deducible that I'm not permissible to say bad things about some one's hobby. I have my own and that's up to me to decide, whether its worthwhile or not . So, the moral of the story is... STOP CRITICIZING!!!

U and I Tough, Man (UiTM)

The beloved dean of ours gave us a quote that sounded hilarious but, indeed has a huge message in it. He closed the lecture session with UiTM stands for 'U n I Tough, Man'. Okay seriously, the 'Man' part was improvised by my colleague. we wanted to make it a complete UiTM.

What he meant was, we are supposed to be tough and resilience in every aspect. We are hoped to posses mettle that will keep us fighting and hopefully winning any battle in the future. As medical students (a.k.a future doctors), life ain't going to be as cheerful as what it seems now. People are getting sicker and they are seemingly contracting rarer diseases, in which it demands a breakthrough or may be an upgrade.

So, we can't just stand and look. We have to create history. not to be a fame-seeker but to improve the quality of life of our lots! (merepek dah aku!!!)

He also told (reminded actually) us today that the upcoming final exam is going to be the TOUGHEST AND THE MOST UNFAIR examination on earth. Students are going to be grilled with barrage. Slightest mistake might invite a gigantic regret.

I've never taken his words lightly. He does what he says, he proves what he believes. He is definitely determined. So, once he promises to execute a mission, he's absolutely on his way of doing it.

So, definitely every one in he batch should work harder... Try their best to ensure, his dreams, our dreams, our family dreams and community's dream come true!

Malaysia Boleh!!! Selamat menyambut Hari Kebangsaan!

Repenting those statements i uttered!

I dialed a friend of mine (How about calling him waffle) to tell him, how sorry i was over the statements that i made few months ago. It was actually an UMPATAN. I told him bad stuff about another friend of us(lets, name him, Pancake). I was being suspicious. Not that i wanted to disgrace pancake. It's just that, i guessed he was not as naive as he looked.

But, to tell u the truth, Tonight conscience hits me. I should have never done that, EVER. I have no rights to judge. No position to say anything. Pancake is my friend and he always is.

Waffle did advice me to stop all those speculations since i have no proof whatsoever. I wanted to convey my sorriness to Pancake, but i have no courage to say it. Guess repenting it should ease me quite a bit.

Hopefully Pancake will understand...

I promise, I'll be a good kid!!

ATTENTION EVERYONE. U ARE ORDERED TO MOVE TO UR NEW HOSTEL NOW OR NEVER!!!

U know, it was a real nightmare. When a friend of mine told me that by the end of this year, we all have to be shifted to the new hostel, i was clueless. I have nothing to say except shaking my head to express my sadness. Hopefully my sadness won't stay long cause Sad and Awie never befriended!

So, like i said, it's a deal. When we don't have to drag our bag (In my case, my BAGSSSS) to the new hostel, i will change myself to become someone nice, meek, nerdy, obedient and submissive. I'll clean the house. I won't let the trash stay in the dustbin for a week, i won't let the water run, unattended. I won't litter on the pavement. I'll keep the surrounding odour-free. (Ceh konon la...Don't take me seriously!!)

So, i'm praying to God. I always do. Now i want:

1. I want to be in a single room.
2. I want to play my songs loudly without annoying my future-to-be roommate
3. I want to do some work outs without me unveiling my secrets.
4. I want to sleep with the lights off. I don't have sleep eye covers!!
5. I want my internet!!!!
6. I have tons of luggage (considering i have been staying in KL for 4 years)

Basically, there is nothing to be done once decision is made. I can't force them to let me live here. May be i could, if only i can afford to pay the rent!
Seriously, i would miss my room... my kitchen... my balcony... my neighbors maybe!

A creepy day!

It was ten minutes past 8 when i woke up this morning. It was also the exact time when i was supposed to be in the ward deciding how would i torture Ainul (a classmate of mine) today.

A message alert brought me to life! Thank God, mastura happened to SMS me this morning asking for a favor, which i tend to detest, but this morning i was grateful. Then, hastily i threw my warming blanket on the floor and stomped in to the bathroom. I grabbed all the toiletries, and practically trying to use them all at once.

So, within 4 to 5 minutes, i did 'clean' and refresh myself. Without even deciding which shirt to be put on and which tie to match with it, I hurriedly left my helpless and messy room! Fortunately, Hazim did wait for me a bit longer, or else i would have wetted my shirt with sweats.

When i arrived, i was so creepy-zombie-sleepy and i had no appetite whatsoever to even have a quick breakfast. Whilst groggily walking, i stumbled upon 2 UiTM staff. "Nak gi tido ker?" They innocently asked.

I just gave a weary smile and passed without uttering a word. The whole day was spooky with me yawning in all directions. I practically dozed off at every single place i put my ischial tuberosities on!

I'm abusing P. Ramlee's

U know, one of my favourite musics is P. Ramlee's products. Seriously, its so entertaining. It's simply calming and lovely. The music is so melancholic. I listen to his songs especially when i'm about to do my study since it does not require me to bang my head or to tap my fingers on the table.

I can sing along without waking up my neighbors.
His song was poignantly written to cheer up those people like me..huhu..

so these are a very of my favs:
1. Gelora.
2. Malam ku bermimpi.
3. Jangan tinggal daku
4. Berkorban apa saja.
5. Barang lepas jangan dikenang
6. Beginilah nasib - hilarious!

...and many more...

Weariness.. STOP IT!!!!

Today is another hectic day for me. I'm now in 10c and 10D wards, which i considered somewhat deserted wards since they are placed higher up, at level 10. Anyway, as a routine, i'm needed to clerk patient, examine them cautiously and plan for appropriate investigations in order to avoid wasting Government's a.k.a Rakyat's money.

So, as usual Monday is tiring. Not that it is busy or filled with lectures. it's just that i've got used to 2-day 'holidayful' weekend. So, the intimate relationship between me and my mattress is seemingly inseparable.

Then, this evening usop made us cucur and he fried burger punye meat (what do we call that?). To follow the rhyme, i sang him 'Kami dah pulang, usop buat cucur, senang saja bancuh air'. It was a superb cooking as far as bachelorhood is concerned.

Then, somehow in the middle of the Membantai Process, i dozed off on the sofa and woke up with 99% tendency of re-sleeping.

I was so tired when i got off to have my dinner tonite. Then, afterwards i spent the whole evening gossiping and finishing my impossible-to-be-done write up..penat!! wanna sleep now

I'm currently reading 'The reluctant Politician'

Afif loaned me a book of his (or maybe his father's) a few weeks ago. I've just started to riffle through the book. The next thing i know, i could not put the book down and relinquish it from my hand. It was so infectious. Really really!

It is one of the very few of non-fictional books that i've read in my pastimes. This book acts as a storyteller to me.. Telling me all about Tun Dr. Ismail, a supposedly our 3rd prime minister had his health been better (The book says). Tun Dr. Ismail is one of the important figures in bringing Malaya towards Independence.

This book, meticulously describing his life in a great detail. I wouldn't have known him if i haven't gotten the chance to read this bibliography of his. So far, i could not elaborate more on how things were going in his time since i haven't finished reading as yet. But seriously, it is an enjoyable reading.

To tell u the truth, my conscious level towards history is considerably low. I never got an A or high mark for my history. It's something shameful... but that's the fact. I barely remember what happened during UMNO establishment. I hardly recollect what happened during 16 May 1969? Was it 1969?

So, i think, the best solution is by reading more history books.
This is the picture of My hero, our hero

A fresh and new favourite moment of mine!

Collectively, i have hundreds of lovely moments that i wish to be in every nanosecond. I listed them down in my previous post. But today, as i enjoying the nite, i finally found another calm but cheerful time for me. It is me, taking a cab in the nite, especially few minutes to midnite.

I just had it a while ago and it was so fun. I deposited myself in the backseat alone. And the road was so deserted and silent. The taxi driver was not a chatterbox himself, neither was i. So, i sat quietly and he drove attentively. I stared through the window and enjoying the scenery, the nite was blanketed with a very thick darkness and occasionally there were houses with dimmed lite loomed in between (arrgghh...me being sentimental again!!) . Believe me, it was so comforting and a breath taking experience.

Don't ever get me wrong. It wasn't my first experience. I have this moments for hundreds time already (smugly declaring it). But, it happened that i'd wasted those moments in my pastimes.

I know, driving a car myself would be a totally different situation as the rule, CONCENTRATE ON THE ROAD is obligatory. So, being a passenger is much better!

"I'm Not Single" my ring finger says!

My family, friends and even strangers keep question me with the same inquiry.
"Are u single, still?"
"Got any girlfriend?"
"Lonely, aren't u?"

I tended to stay mum jer la.. since i have nothing to prove. Malays say 'Menegakkan benang yang basah' surely it's something useless.
Like i mentioned, i've bought myself a ring few weeks ago at Berjaya Times square. It happened when i accompanied Abu for his shopping spree moment. Later, i realized that i didn't buy a single thing. i was just accompanying. so, i decided; I MUST BUY SOMETHING.

so later, i found myself in a ring shop. Looking for a perfect ring that literally describing myself as a single, available but not a desperate guy. So,i kept lookin' for a perfect ring which says everything.

I tried dozens of rings. Less-shiny;rejected... Looked cheap; rejected, said I'm-single-but-not-available; rejected. Lastly, after tiring the salesgirl, i chose a simple ring which, on my view saying them all at once 'I'm single, i'm hot, i'm a real catch,i'm indulging, i'm not desperate'

Abu actually created the theory 'Ring makes u look less single'. He, himself bought a ring! Hahaha..Poor guy!

SiKerdil was saved from a debilitating injury!!

Alhamdulillah... I was kept safe again today from an impending disastrous injury u know. I was walking on a pavement when suddenly a branch of a tree fell right in front of me.. which was a few steps before me. i was shocked.

If i walked a bit faster, surely the branch would have hit my precious head. or maybe scarred my gifted face. Lol! needless to say i was thankful and grateful that it dint happen. Thank God

A Bus, An Obsolete young Man, 2 free bus tickets, A 100 buck lunch!

These are the keywords for the greatness of people today. They can absolutely act in many ways to sparkle and to be distinguished figures.

1. A bus:
I was on a bus when a man stopped me from taking an apparently empty seat. Then, later i discovered that he was trying to protect me from taking a seat with vomit on it. Gross huh?! Then, thing got grosser.... Gosh, i just could not describe how lousy the bus was. Darn!! Hate the bus! I mean COULDN'T the bus users stop from littering and purging!

2. An Obsolete young man
I met a young man who was undoubtedly looked up-to-date kind of guy. He wore clean shirt, with combed hair and clean nails but the way he was thinking was soooo Yesterday and oldish! To bid him a good bye, i managed to make up a word which i consider cuteness-evoking. Surprisingly, he received it with an outrageous respond. I was astounded and amazed by his stupidity. Gosh! I mean chill it out man. Don't be so stiff and dull.Life is short. Make it worth living. Get rid off those rigid and silly thoughts. For heaven's sakes!

3. 2 Free bus tickets.
Abu and I were heading to a bus station when he found a free ticket intentionally left on the pavement by a stranger. He was so excited since it meant he just got a 2-buck note FOC. I was overwhelmingly envious. I kept repeating the sentence "Owh.. I'm the only one hu needs to get his wallet empty. But later, without any warning, i found my luck. I got a free ticket too. Left on the pavement gak! We were so happy and thankful to those 2 kind and generous strangers!

4. A 100 buck lunch
Udin; a friend and a cousin of mine, who was so excited after having his money deposited in his account called us for a very generous reason. HE wanted to stuff good food in our empty belly today. So he brought us to Kenny Rogers for a lunch. So, acting normally.. i ordered shamelessly all the exotic foods. But, i did warn udin to be ready for any sudden bankruptcy (believe me...he won't) So we ate and ate....


those 4 people(maybe more) i described were definitely changing my days.

Wut a wonderful weekend!

I didn't plan to have anything on my weekend. I was thinking of having normal and studious weekend. I did agree to have a Group study, but later... all arrangements were changed drastically. I grabbed my phone and text my friend... "I accepted ur invitation!!!" I wrote. He first invited me and a friend of mine to his place to have a wonderful weekend together.

I refused at first, thinking of my hectic life now. Stuff to be learnt, things to be done... Chores to be not abandoned. But still, temptation was so skyrocketing.

So, what happened? Owh, first we met and we spent the whole evening talking and exchanging news. New gossips, new anecdotes, new people and even new enemies. We laughed ad nauseam. Then, we happened to exchange new movies that we owned. And reviewed the movies in a great depth.

Exhausted-lessly, we later headed to our lepaking spot at 10 minutes to midnite. I know it sounds spooky, but it wasn't. People were all up and about. Ready to help us once Bogeyman loomed.

We ordered Sup Daging with Ayam masak Kunyit and French fries. It was a real MEAL. A real one. Gosh!!! Miss those moments!!

Then, the whole evening was just great with us talking unstoppably.

Everything gonna be olrite!

Tell u wut, this is one of the best sentences i'd love to hear every time i'm facing any obstacles and hardships in life(Another sentence is "I would rather lose a bunch of cash than seeing u upset" or "Don't be so unhappy.. Come! Lets go to Paris!) . Sometimes, i even try to make those people to say it slowly in case my worried heart misses it.

I guess, they are lots of people out there beg to differ on this matter. Not that i blame them. But the issue is, I'M HOLDING TO THAT SENTENCE.

My sister is one of the regular users of this statement. She uses it to comfort her daughter who's always worried about her Raya shoes. She uses it on my mom, to tell her that she has nothing to burden her mind about our-non-stop-family gossips... And certainly she tends to use it to encourage me when i'm out of money for shopping. (On top of that, she is a loyal money-provider!! Bless her!)

Sometimes, things appear to be NOT-GOING-TO-BE-ALRITE. Alas, we still have to accept the fact. But by hearing those words, at some degree it mite make us believe that miracle can happen. and it sure can!

Made of Honor Or should it be Maid of Honor?

"I hate Scotland!", "I have rules, I don't do Back to backs" and lastly " I pride myself for being honest to everyone, but i have been lying to myself for a very long time"...

These are the quotes that i managed to pluck from one of the movie in my Most-wanted-to-watch movies list. Finally i spent the whole undisturbed 1 and a half hours observing this watchable-romantic-a bit pathetic-funny-splendid movie. Hey, can u see that, i'm practically using A word to describe the movie.

The story was totally entertaining. I confess that it was a boringly predictable storyline. But u have to admit, All love stories are. So, the fact that this movie is so darn guessable is nothing but negotiable.

I did laugh to some degree that the laughs peeved people around me. The scripts are good though! Lines are made to create guffaws! But not to deny, the influence of McDreamy in this movie is so huge. The bride, by the way is not bad. She is an undeniably attractive woman.

The movie managed to place itself on the Rank 2 after Iron man in its first week release. It's one hell of achievement.

The lessons i've learnt from this movie were:

1. Forget the friendship, it's a lover-ship actually!
2. Have the feeling, express it b4 it's too little too late
3. Tradition, sometimes act to ruin any-ship!
4. Marriage sometimes can be ruined at any moment, even a wee second before u are announced to be husband and wife. So be careful. Don't be so complacent.

Breast-less Pengkid!!!

Last nite, my friend criticized my hair for being so 'his uncle'. So, i pondered. Do i really look his married, happy, UnDesperate uncle?! I believe his rejoicing uncle is someone great, but i'm single, available and utterly has some degree of desperateness.

I deduced, the best way to look a bit available was cutting them off. Cut the curly hair now. I remembered posting a post sayin i loved my hair. I still do.

Late in the nite, i trimmed my hair, myself. try to make it fun and on top of that, HOTTIER. But, later i asked a friend of mine to give the final touch. Remove the fine hair on the nape of my neck. But, i guess, he overdid it. He definitely did.

So, when it'd finished, i spent the nite with a lighter head. Sleeping so soundly and blissful.

One thing in the morning, a friend commented that the back part of my hair was so short and it was ear-leveled cut. So, it practically made me look like a Bosom-less pengkid.

Gosh!

"Why are u treating me like a moron" he says with a gaze!

2.30 p.m
In a decent and probably a cosy Room

2 guys stepped in the room and looked a bit alarmed. WorrY and weariness also noticeable worn on their face. They were about to meet an inmate of bla bla bla Centre.They fumbled here and there, tried to look for words.

12 minutes earlier, they were looking at the chart of the inmate. It was clearly written there DEAF INMATE. So, they portended, approaching him required proper skills and techniques. In order to achieve the aims which were:

1. Get the inmate to cooperate and let them run some test
2. Avoid from hurting the inmate's feeling
3. Be accommodative as possible

The other guy beckoned his friend to start the 'conversation'. He obeyed and started to shout (Practically shouting!!!!)

"Hello Mister. Can u hear me?" Together, he made a gesture by moving his hands at the side of his ears.

The inmate zipped his mouth. Eyes were staring at the guy. The other guy looked nervous from far... and had the intention to just leave the room.

The 1st guy continued.
"What's ur name?"

The inmate responded immediately.
"£$%^&*(&)$" he said his name was.

The first guy didn't believe his ears. He re-tested.
"How are u today?"

The inmate looked a bit confused but without further ado, answering the question.
"Okay... But i have this %^£&"*£ all over"

The inmate continuously talking and it definitely shocked the 2 unprepared guys. The inmate definitely a chat box and obviously has no hearing problem whatsoever. Ashamed by their stupidity, they then continued the real conversation with lower tone. no shouting.

The inmate, might be saying:

WHY ARE TREATING ME LIKE A MORON?!

Ants and their ally

Recently, my house is under never ending ants attack. Every single thing is besieged by 'em. Nothing spared.
This cranky pattern of Ants inclination has drawn my attention. I even gave a thought to do some research on this weirdness. But, due to time and maybe money constrains, i hold my relentless curiosity.

Another matter clinging together with this Ants thing is, Huge dilemma that i'm in. I always work towards kindness and try to remove any nasty thoughts in my mind. But, in this scenario, i have lost my head. Do i have to kill 'em all or just shoo them out nicely, full with humanity.

Sometimes, i do things barbarically to get them off my floor and my kitchen. And sometimes, i do things nicely. But, looking to the percentage, i would say 75% of the case, i dealt with it brutally.

I mean, how do i tell this little creature to drag their 6-legged body off? They keep coming!!


The major concern of mine and my housemates is the fact that this cuddly (is it possible??!!) Formicidae have started to show interest in plain water. It's definitely a sugar free plain water. But still early in the morning, when we are about to quench our thirst, there they are. Floating and DEAD in our used-to-be delicious plain water!

I believe that we are not supposed to drink ant-containing water. There is a belief says, it might invite stupidity for 40 days. I do believe in that. Needless to say, the water might be contaminated.

I love creatures. They are just like me, a creature. But, sometimes they tend to peeve me (unintentionally!) and i'm still hoping that i will react with dignity and mercy!

P.s to all ants out there... Please, place urself away from my drinking water. I'm thirsty!!

Dentist... Bleeding and intolerable pain..

9.30 a.m
Some Hospital

Awie was spotted queuing in his self amused tie, uncombed hair..holding a piece of paper and a small chocolate-bar-shaped card in his hand. He was definitely not on any teaching on that day. He had hours of ward works.. and he had none errand to run. He was definitely up to something.

Later, he was seen approaching the counter. He started to blush.. from far, it was obvious, let alone the entertained kakak at the counter to notice

"I haf an appointment. for my teeth" He blurted. Not to smile of cos since nurses tend to stare at ur problematic part once u mention it. So lips seemed inseparable. It was his first dental appointment since he had his last milk tooth extracted.

The whole registration process plus the waiting duration cost him an hour. He then,Took a chair and amused himself with a book. Continue reading till his name shouted!

Off he went, meeting the dentist! The followings are the dialogs used to express themselves (dentist and awie.. and an understudy, student)

Dentist (A pretty one):
"So, how may i help u Mr. grrrrr (checking awie's name) Hairuddin?"

Awie:
Owh.. wanna do some scaling, if possible"

Dentist:
"what exacctly ur problem is?

Awie:
Confident and looked ready for any barrage
"I have bleeding gums. And it's even spontaneous, let alone touching it with toothbrush"

"it has been there for 2 months"

Dentist:
Looking for Dental student with pure intention to teach.
"Student, do clerk this patient first"

Student:
.....difficult to look for words first. then came out with "Do u have any medical problems? On any drugs? When it happened? (once in a while awie nodded and shook head his head to respond)

*Awie has done thousands of clerking these past years and never actually tasted the feeling of being bombarded with questions. So, he was hoping to be barraged more and more by the student. Hahahaha

Few minutes later, awie was observed to have his mouth wide opened and the Dentist and a nurse worked in it. Embarrassed by the process wholly, he closed his eyes, not wanting to feel it ...the real embarrassment.

But prior to that, he was informed that Dentists were glad to hear that awie did his toothbrushing trice daily. But...but... THE SKILLS WERE IMPROPER AND THE TECHNIQUE OBVIOUSLY NOT ACCORDANCE TO THE STANDARD.
he was also shown multiple calcified stony scales that he treasured in his teeth. Owh Malu malu malu...

"Kindly inform me if u feel an intense pain" The dentist uttered before vibrating rod and a gush of water swirling in his mouth.
How much pain did she mean? He mean, he is not a pain-philic himself. No one is, he bet! Then, he strongly resisted himself from swallowing during the procedure even he could feel the whole water started to submerge his throat (A real exaggeration). It was snarky situation in there.

few minutes later, he found himself rinsing his mouth with clear water. Blood came out so scarlet. He was so glad that the process had finished and he finally can exclaim yay for having such courage. No more scales. Thank to the dentist and the nurse.

Untouched books remain on the shelf

Sorry... I haven't gotten the appetite to lay my head on the pillow. BTW, its SIKERDIL BERCERITA NON-STOP rite? i made clear, its N-O-N STOP!!

So, here before i tried to press the OFF button, my eyes caught something on the end of my table. The unread stuff/ books. I have been loaning tons of books lately since i was thinking that maybe my hobby is reading... except for the fact that my hobby's remained subtle.

anyway. so the books aren't actually love stories (i do have some cintan cintun stuff)... But these books are good. I'm still browsing for spared time to be spent with my books.

This is the list of those books:
1. p.s I love you
- i was dying to own this book masef.. But now i have it. Unfortunately, time didn't come together.

2. The reluctant politician
- I have read the first few pages of its. It was mesmerizing but for God's sakes... Time is critical here. But still have to go through it.. Still

3. The chronicle of Malaysia
- I have loaned this one few months back, then i wanted to re-loan it. I want it

4. Whiteout
- A novel by Ken Follett. I have it for centuries.. It's still untouched in my shelf.

5. Issues of Reader's digests
- Lot to be digested huh??!!

White chocolate... Telling u!

I ordered a bucket of chocolates from Langkawi recently where a friend mine had some stuff to do in that particular duty-free island. I haven't told anyone except my sister that i'm a choc freak. Seriously, i love every nanosecond that i spend nibbling my chocolate bar.

So, back to the ordering part. We (2 of us...) ordered 6 bars of chocolate since i heard it was cheaper there. So i've heard. But then, later i found out that it wasn't as heaven as it sounded. The price is surprisingly the same. 20-30 cents difference won't get me tempted.

I have been doing lot of chocolate shoppings in my matriculation year. It had been a heaven year. I ate tons of chocolate and that's what i call CHEAP. By the way, forget about that. I am still glad that i have kilos of chocolate in my drawer now waiting to be eaten.


So, last nite, i decided to eat my white chocolate (isn't that an oxymoron. I mean, chocolate is chocolate...and it's isn't supposed to be white...whatever). So, like i imagined, it was going to be a great moment for me and Mr. Whitey!

Every bite was a bless.... And i was blissful to have it... Now am exaggerating. My friend told me that the chocolate really tasted good and he had this mixed up fellings. A strong desire to eat 'em all and an intense fear to have it gone!

anyway.. chocolate is chocolate!!

I'm colonising my colony... Im not intruding..

Staphylococcus aureus is meant to live in its own colony. Never go beyond that. The golden-crusted colony is always theirs. Once it goes to some other bacteria's, it's doomed.

That's how i perceive life. U live in ur own colony. Never get mixed up coz the outcome is dreadfully devastating. I reminisced the words i told my friends the other day "Watch out boys! Life is not great on the other end"

I was actually reminding them that ur friends before u are the best. And looking for a substitute is nothing more than inviting a dangerous stranger. I am saying all these since experience had taught me well.

I caught Flu...

Now i know... Now it's crystal clear. The reason for me being so sleepy and in need of long time slumber time was this: F-L-U... I didn't have any sore throat prior to that. What i had was 2-day unspecific symptoms which was sleepy head.

I remembered, i slept for hours and clearly, i have to surrender my books. I didn't blame anyone or anything here. FLU is not the perpetrator. I'm just saying.... I kept giving a profound thinking to that. What made me so sleepy? Did i under sleep... or was i stressful? or was i nuts?

anyway, guess it's solved..and hopefully it really is...

PseudoKnowledgeable is not accepted!

I riffled through few blogs tonite. I read their contents and contemplated! Gosh, i am so outdated... My issues, my words, my thoughts.. They are all unacceptably obsolete. I know, thats what i call PSEUDOKNOWLEDGEABLE. Someone who looks/ sounds intelligent externally, but deep inside his brain lies nothing!

So, those blogs i ran through were impressive and stunning. I have no clue how they do it, how they find amazing words to make reader's jaw drops, how do they look for cool issues to be addressed.

I envy 'em. That's the fact, and envy is harmful if we use it in negative way, so i rather turn my jealousy to become something fruitful. I, hereby declare that i want to read more more more *1000x repetition.

And, beside those evoking-admiration works.... I also stumbled across pretty awesome blogs that made me do a rethinking... What else to be added next? Wait and see!

i held his hand...not so tight of cos!

These are parts of the conversation between me and an Uncle:

"I have nothing left. I have tons of problems. Things to pay. We live, we pay" the pakcik said!

I nodded, instead of saying a thing. My face blushed with sadness and part of it was looking-for-word'ness.

Pakcik looked at me, directly to my eyes.

"U know, i got salary. Not sufficient. Receive this month, by the end of the month, GONE!" he added.

I looked back, hoping this time i managed to say powerful words. But instead i supported him with "Yeah, thats exactly true, furthermore... u live in KL"

Then, he continued because i stayed mums for 5 seconds (practicing my lecturer's tip: When u stop talking, the other party will try to talk since we all hate silence)...
"I don't know what to do next. I'm so in a catch 22 (not literally saying it...)"

Guess what i did next?

I held his hand... and just looked at him...
Hoping that by holding his hand, he would understand that i knew what he felt. Hopefully, he really did!!

Ah ha.... Changed my title!

noticed or missed it? urmm...nothing surprising and nothing new. Its just the name. I used 2 use AWIE WITH HIS HAPPINESS and now, its changed to become something cooler (u bet!! It is)... SIKERDIL BERCERITA NON_STOP.

The reason behind it meh? owh... So simple. I want it to be less freaking serious. mIne was so scary. When u saw it at first, i am pretty sure u can judge me...by a glimpse. Awie is the nerdiest nerdy boy ever alive!

Maybe i was... But i am not now.. I want to write cool stuff now.. so, let new Version of Awie write... u sit and see!

Before that, i want to do some disclosure. A short one.
1. Sikerdil: Yes! I'm Kerdil... Believe me or not. I'm 1.6m (Convert it to inch plzz)
2. Bercerita Non-stop: hohoho!! This absolutely correct. Considering the fact that i can resist my eye lids from touching each other, spare time for TALKING.

KekasihKu Seru proves Malaysia boleh!

My friends have been so helpful these days. Latest, they told me that last week i had missed an extremely hair-rising drama on TV3. Kekasih Ku Seru, aired on Thursday, 9.30 a.m.

I expected that this SERAM slot will be replaced with another crap. Previously it was Susuk which i detested! Followed by Anak Pontianak which i did enjoy the very first episodes (Maya Karin was there)... but then the whole story was murdered by Myia.. Hate her!

Then, another one was Saka which was good.. the storyline was impressive(Boleh la..) but the effects were silly! The spooky part turned to become funny and nauseating.

So, i deduce from the bad histories, SERAM slot is just another slot to fill the emptiness of hours! And of course does waste viewers time...!

After watching Kekasih Ku Seru, I started to change my mind. "Yeah! They can do it. It's creepy!" That's my conclusion after watching.

This is another product of Kabir Bhatia, who recently amazed me with his work in Sepi. He did wonderful. I think Malaysia needs more Khabir Bhatias to make our movie industry blooms!

And the Casts are fantastic. Emelda Rosmila (Cute, Manjalara), Fizz Fairuz (our bad guy gone nice huh?!), Umie Aida(so Malay'ish, gorgeous and talented), Hairie Othman (Whats with our Sergeant?), Kuza (owh we need her!)


The whole graphic is real and the story is not exaggerated! So, i'm suggesting for u guys to spend ur Thursday nite with screams... How does that sound?!

Here the preview!!

Hectic days... Hustle...But to forget my happiness??

My previous post has clearly stated (or at least tried to sound) that my days are getting hectic and chaotic (KOnon la...!!)

Then a question popped in my mind... "should i relinquish my hobbies then?" I love things and one of them is writing in my blog. Clearly, i haven't given up on that. I love read books, it's quite obvious that i started to put stagnant on my reading, my book seems to be covered with dust nowadays... Watching movies and dramas.. SO far, i have combated my feeling from watching these fantastic stuff that i have.

But still, i haven't given up on them especially my writing, music and book. These things make me happy, keep me smile and put my mind in ease. So why do i have to relinquish it?! I don't think so.

after all, reading and studying still demand a break. Brain is practically like a working machine. It requires a downtime. To cool down...or else it's going to explode anytime soon.

*Still have P.s I love u...haven't touched.

NOw I know....

Now i know... Or maybe i should say "They told me so!!"
Why a sudden?

Actually, conscience just struck me and i realised that Seniors have been rite all this while. My seniors have indoctrinated and reminded me and friends to watch out, do early preparation for the Final Year.

I remembered during the Farewell party that nite, every single senior uttered the same thing. "Pesan abang/ Kakak, buat la persiapan awal". So they said.

My response was "Owh okay..." and "Owh.. i know..." But seriously i didn't. Till i spent my days in medicine posting, i started feel that there are actually zillions of things to be done and read. Not that i dint read in previous years, but hey! Human is human... Forgetful is nothing but undeniable.

Reading thousand times is one thing, then practice examnation is another major issue. Every finding has to be elicited and the presence has to be followed with justification.

Then, diagnosis and differential diagnosis should be given together with their pros and cons. So, mind has to be extremely prepared.

Then, how would i manage the patient. Considering the diagnosis, the concurrent medical problems. Everything is so in need great attention. Previously, i managed a case (including the history, examination and all) i took around 1 hour..or so. But now i realise that it's pretty in need more....

Now i spend half of my day to only look for 2 cases.

What worries me the most is the fact that i am dealing with life which can be my family's or maybe my friend's. Lacking of skills and knowledges in handling these might invite disastrous effect. Exam is one thing, the aftermath is one thing... BIG BIG BIG!