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I have read an article recently about a jumble of job-interview-internet-boss-sack-doom. I know, u might have read it too. But for those who haven't, i think this is noteworthiest thing to be shared.

The article says (don't take it literally), when u are in desire of posting something, have u mind wondered again. Re-think. Is it a wise thing to do? What is the future consequence?

The article disclosed few experiences who were facebooking and posting their so-called naughty pictures and statements in it. Soon, they got sacked! And some of the interviewees just got dismissed even they had got the job a few seconds ago.

Wut was the reason behind that? Surprising enough to me, the bosses and the interviewers googled their names and guess wut they got? ....naked pictures, obscene remarks, immaturities and all sort of things by just clicking the names in the search engine.

So, to me... It is a real threat. I can't just doom myself by doing that. I have to watch wut i say, wut i do coz internet means 'hey world! it's me!'

I just love those moments!

I have listed down a very few of my beliefs! and here im again, listing my personal life. am an exhibitionist now? Guess i am. u know wut, people might think it's a mistake (by telling the whole world) but i would rather take it as sharing and as a saying says SHARING IS GOOD.

Let's go to my list then... I have few moments that i do love and hope to have it all day long. First of all, i love to be alone in a very tidy and full-of-scent room. A room where i can lie down and have my mind wondering around. Have good things around my mind. Smile ALONE (weird am i not?). and of cos listen to the most melancolic song ever!

But... But.. but.. As to contradict the first one. I also, need sometimes to lie in my bed where my pants and shorts are all around my room. It looks messy and definitely cluttered. Then, i want to fill the room with a blast of din! Music which vibrates the floor! i may sing along or dance with the music or just stay there with my face against the unswept floor!


A moment where i can be on a bus, or train or taxi or wutever means of transportation... alone and reading my non-stressful books. No one says anything. It's just me and the throng of strangers. Or maybe me sitting on a bench alone at night.. Looking at the immobile stars! One or two friends are acceptable.

Then, i want to be with my friends, as many as possible and having great movies in a cosy seat! Laughing out loud or crying eyeballs out (whenever appropriate). Then, enjoying the next moment by reviewing the movie over dinner. Having fun with bowling or maybe Kara-o-ke!

Then, want to be with my family. Having meal and teasing each other for their silly mistakes. Talking endlessly during a movie or maybe spending hours having pillow talk..discussing abt family tree or sharing stories about how wonderful our clan was (and IS)


Moment where i read books, medical books without any distruption! Just me and and the book. It makes it wonderful when all the info goes thru my mind and unremovable!


The moment where i spend the whole nite with friends watching TV or DVD at home with home-made popcorn. or maybe dance when ever our favorite songs played!

I do believe

When people ask me... What do u believe? I'll stammer as i got zillion of things to believe. I believe in most of things nowadays. I'm not that Godly or a spiritual kinda of person (am not proud to admit this... shame on me!)


Yeah, like everyone else, I do believe in God. And i have a great faith in Him. He's the one that i alwats turn to when im facing turmoil in my life. I know, it isn't supposed to be so, since as far as Islam teaches me, God ought to be consulted in every single thing. We have to thank Him, worship Him, ask for Mercy and help since we as the creations of Allah always need helps whether we realise it or stubbornly not!

Then, we move to the portion we i believe in other things in life. but there is a weird thing about my affirmative belief. They tend to turn out to be contradictiing each other. Let say, I believe that people who love to make jokes are not proffesional but the next day, i would say that they are just charming and sweet as they try to please people.

I know its so confusing and hell yeah... i still belive and still do!
..... And wut else do i believe???


I believe that one day, there will be someone for me. Waiting for me and im so sure that that particular someone suits me well... I don't care how long will it take... I'll just follow the flow and wait!

I believe that one thing special about me is i'm nice. I know, most of the time i act like a jackass but believe it or not i do have kindness in myself. its just that, i don't know how to express them.

I believe that when someone says that everything is going to be just all right, it really is. And i always hope that people are keep reminding me... Whatever happens, there always be a way to go through it. and im hoping at the same time that those people would come and help!


I believe.. that love is something special. call me sentimental or anything u want but i know deep inside u do believe the same.


And i believe that in life, the only thing that matters is to help urself having a happy life. Definition of happy is definitely not genaralised but individualised instead. So, choose and look for ur happy life. No one can tell where it is and what it is. It's ur pick. Life is always about choices! and u r the one who need to do that.

nevertheless, i do believe that life can be messy sometimes. I don't belive that God is torturing us but it's just the matter of make it more fun! But still i am not sure and absolutely not ready for a messy life coz it makes me nauseated when i think about it.

I do believe that in life, no matter how many people are hating u... There must be someone (and even more) that loves u... So, think about it! Being hated is not the end of the world even it seems so!


I still have tons of beliefs to be revealed. But its hard to spill it out!!

Inexorable Sleepiness and tiredness

i have never warned myself that surgical posting was going to be this tough. I know, eveyone would not agree with my perception on this matter. Lots of students (and of course surgeons) are going to say that surgery is undeniably easy and need-half-of-ur-brain kinda posting. But i just could be in an agreement!


Today, we had a very long day(even, practically it wasnt exceeding 24 hours)! it was hard. I dunno, lecturers always say that be in Year 5 is just a revision. nothing new to be taught. I could not agree more. But wut happens in my case, be in this posting means i have to re-read the whole book again!

And i dunno when can i do that! And it was so unimaginable. I need to look for space to read! OMG!!! im so tired!

I just need a brain that can retain at least 60% from wut had been discussed in the past years. but it seems like my brain could not do that. Or maybe my brainie is just trying to stimulate me to work harder!

U know wut..my eyes are all swollen and they are protesting. They want a rest but how could i do that? i Still have tons of things to be visited in the book. They need understanding and memorizing.

P.s...i need help!

Owh....! Its the time to please myself!

*again the picture is as the matter of decoration!!!!

I am so sleepy but i got this thing in my mind. It says "Enjoy ur life. Be happy! And don't bother to please people!" So i think, i should write on this matter before its gone and swept by the hustle of monday!

So, like i said life is to short to be wasted. We have to think that in life, there are thousands or maybe millions of opportunities to be felt and enjoyed. They are not just what u can see before u! Believe me.

Simple things are actually huge if u want to make it so! Lets take an example. I realised this one recently. Okay, people might say, birthday party have to be grand and fun. Saying fun here means a real fun. Friends, families, food, gifts and everything. And as it sounds, it needs lot of support... man power and even financially.

But wut i have discovered that fun things dont really need that. they juz demand us to be fun. If want to make it fun, fun will it be! If we want to make it dull or stiff, then its our pick!

So, i know its sounds a bit cliche but, life is just going to that direction. The more cliche the things are... the more real they can be! So.. Stop saying that banal concepts are boring and outdated!


I think i have juz gone out of the topic. But the issue is still the same. we don't have to be totally self-centered and selfish but please for Heaven's sake... Make urself happy and put aside others feeling. Don't ever do thing that please people surround u but deep inside it hurts u badly..

I stop blaming myself coz it didn't work!

NO MORE THIS FACE!



sumting struck me today. i realised that in most of the situations i tended to blame myself for wutever has happened. from the smallest thing to even the largest one. i believe by blaming myself it would have turned myself to become someone better and mistake-less!

But that was not the case. Even all those intention achieved or in other word it worked but i think it was not fair for me, myself. i keep feeling bad about myself. i started to develop a very low self-esteem and i have no dignity and pride.


i have to praise myself (but obviously not to the extent that it mite sound disgusting).. i don't to have a very gloom day everyday. Lets take an example, i spent the whole day doing nothing but TV and sleep. in the nite juz before i lied my head on my pillow, i would say "Hey awie! u r a damn bad boy. U had spent the whole day doing nothing but wasting time. Let alone doing things properly!!"


So, the next day, i woke up with grief and regret. and the result was still the same. i did wut i have done! Maybe, if i turn the mistake and encourage myself to be more productive in the future, it would be sweet and effective. am i rite?


life is just once. i don't to spend it with sorrow and regret. It has to be fun and i deserve to be fun. But not to forget the borders should the religion has forbidden us from doing. By the way, i am waiting for my turn to use the toilet!

its magrib! Guess, its my turn!

OMG!!! im cooking!

this is another hot guy who cooks!

Here another breathtaking news. Awie Ahmad was spotted in the kitchen doing something that looked like cooking. It was so shocking incident!

Okay, dun be so prejudiced about me cooking. Who knows how's the taste. I know i havent cooked since i was born (except for some occasion where i helped some1 cooking or i cooked sumting extremely simple).

So today, i decided to learn something new. So determined to think that maybe, if do learn, one day i will be a great cooker! i picked my phone and dialed Abu's number as to ask him, his recipe. He once cooked for us and it was so simple and i cant help but love it.

so he directed me to do this and that. i asked him a very basic questions...and thankfully he answered without mocking me.


So i decided to cook sayur kacang Buncis(and to respect Abu's fav food, i put tomato inside) then i fried fish with lemon! or maybe it isn't called lemon! with my phone in the hand... i asked him to be directive. tell me wut to do next, wut to put next, how long was the frying... and finally, it was done.

i could not wait any longer to taste my own cooking (juz forget the consultation part).. guess wut, it was so yummylicious and i could not stop from praising my self! it was a real compliment to me.


But, i was so sorry. i didn't even let my housemate have a bite as i was afraid it would be so atrocious!

The cooking process was so fun. and i simply love the hustle..