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I have read an article recently about a jumble of job-interview-internet-boss-sack-doom. I know, u might have read it too. But for those who haven't, i think this is noteworthiest thing to be shared.

The article says (don't take it literally), when u are in desire of posting something, have u mind wondered again. Re-think. Is it a wise thing to do? What is the future consequence?

The article disclosed few experiences who were facebooking and posting their so-called naughty pictures and statements in it. Soon, they got sacked! And some of the interviewees just got dismissed even they had got the job a few seconds ago.

Wut was the reason behind that? Surprising enough to me, the bosses and the interviewers googled their names and guess wut they got? ....naked pictures, obscene remarks, immaturities and all sort of things by just clicking the names in the search engine.

So, to me... It is a real threat. I can't just doom myself by doing that. I have to watch wut i say, wut i do coz internet means 'hey world! it's me!'

I just love those moments!

I have listed down a very few of my beliefs! and here im again, listing my personal life. am an exhibitionist now? Guess i am. u know wut, people might think it's a mistake (by telling the whole world) but i would rather take it as sharing and as a saying says SHARING IS GOOD.

Let's go to my list then... I have few moments that i do love and hope to have it all day long. First of all, i love to be alone in a very tidy and full-of-scent room. A room where i can lie down and have my mind wondering around. Have good things around my mind. Smile ALONE (weird am i not?). and of cos listen to the most melancolic song ever!

But... But.. but.. As to contradict the first one. I also, need sometimes to lie in my bed where my pants and shorts are all around my room. It looks messy and definitely cluttered. Then, i want to fill the room with a blast of din! Music which vibrates the floor! i may sing along or dance with the music or just stay there with my face against the unswept floor!


A moment where i can be on a bus, or train or taxi or wutever means of transportation... alone and reading my non-stressful books. No one says anything. It's just me and the throng of strangers. Or maybe me sitting on a bench alone at night.. Looking at the immobile stars! One or two friends are acceptable.

Then, i want to be with my friends, as many as possible and having great movies in a cosy seat! Laughing out loud or crying eyeballs out (whenever appropriate). Then, enjoying the next moment by reviewing the movie over dinner. Having fun with bowling or maybe Kara-o-ke!

Then, want to be with my family. Having meal and teasing each other for their silly mistakes. Talking endlessly during a movie or maybe spending hours having pillow talk..discussing abt family tree or sharing stories about how wonderful our clan was (and IS)


Moment where i read books, medical books without any distruption! Just me and and the book. It makes it wonderful when all the info goes thru my mind and unremovable!


The moment where i spend the whole nite with friends watching TV or DVD at home with home-made popcorn. or maybe dance when ever our favorite songs played!

I do believe

When people ask me... What do u believe? I'll stammer as i got zillion of things to believe. I believe in most of things nowadays. I'm not that Godly or a spiritual kinda of person (am not proud to admit this... shame on me!)


Yeah, like everyone else, I do believe in God. And i have a great faith in Him. He's the one that i alwats turn to when im facing turmoil in my life. I know, it isn't supposed to be so, since as far as Islam teaches me, God ought to be consulted in every single thing. We have to thank Him, worship Him, ask for Mercy and help since we as the creations of Allah always need helps whether we realise it or stubbornly not!

Then, we move to the portion we i believe in other things in life. but there is a weird thing about my affirmative belief. They tend to turn out to be contradictiing each other. Let say, I believe that people who love to make jokes are not proffesional but the next day, i would say that they are just charming and sweet as they try to please people.

I know its so confusing and hell yeah... i still belive and still do!
..... And wut else do i believe???


I believe that one day, there will be someone for me. Waiting for me and im so sure that that particular someone suits me well... I don't care how long will it take... I'll just follow the flow and wait!

I believe that one thing special about me is i'm nice. I know, most of the time i act like a jackass but believe it or not i do have kindness in myself. its just that, i don't know how to express them.

I believe that when someone says that everything is going to be just all right, it really is. And i always hope that people are keep reminding me... Whatever happens, there always be a way to go through it. and im hoping at the same time that those people would come and help!


I believe.. that love is something special. call me sentimental or anything u want but i know deep inside u do believe the same.


And i believe that in life, the only thing that matters is to help urself having a happy life. Definition of happy is definitely not genaralised but individualised instead. So, choose and look for ur happy life. No one can tell where it is and what it is. It's ur pick. Life is always about choices! and u r the one who need to do that.

nevertheless, i do believe that life can be messy sometimes. I don't belive that God is torturing us but it's just the matter of make it more fun! But still i am not sure and absolutely not ready for a messy life coz it makes me nauseated when i think about it.

I do believe that in life, no matter how many people are hating u... There must be someone (and even more) that loves u... So, think about it! Being hated is not the end of the world even it seems so!


I still have tons of beliefs to be revealed. But its hard to spill it out!!

Inexorable Sleepiness and tiredness

i have never warned myself that surgical posting was going to be this tough. I know, eveyone would not agree with my perception on this matter. Lots of students (and of course surgeons) are going to say that surgery is undeniably easy and need-half-of-ur-brain kinda posting. But i just could be in an agreement!


Today, we had a very long day(even, practically it wasnt exceeding 24 hours)! it was hard. I dunno, lecturers always say that be in Year 5 is just a revision. nothing new to be taught. I could not agree more. But wut happens in my case, be in this posting means i have to re-read the whole book again!

And i dunno when can i do that! And it was so unimaginable. I need to look for space to read! OMG!!! im so tired!

I just need a brain that can retain at least 60% from wut had been discussed in the past years. but it seems like my brain could not do that. Or maybe my brainie is just trying to stimulate me to work harder!

U know wut..my eyes are all swollen and they are protesting. They want a rest but how could i do that? i Still have tons of things to be visited in the book. They need understanding and memorizing.

P.s...i need help!

Owh....! Its the time to please myself!

*again the picture is as the matter of decoration!!!!

I am so sleepy but i got this thing in my mind. It says "Enjoy ur life. Be happy! And don't bother to please people!" So i think, i should write on this matter before its gone and swept by the hustle of monday!

So, like i said life is to short to be wasted. We have to think that in life, there are thousands or maybe millions of opportunities to be felt and enjoyed. They are not just what u can see before u! Believe me.

Simple things are actually huge if u want to make it so! Lets take an example. I realised this one recently. Okay, people might say, birthday party have to be grand and fun. Saying fun here means a real fun. Friends, families, food, gifts and everything. And as it sounds, it needs lot of support... man power and even financially.

But wut i have discovered that fun things dont really need that. they juz demand us to be fun. If want to make it fun, fun will it be! If we want to make it dull or stiff, then its our pick!

So, i know its sounds a bit cliche but, life is just going to that direction. The more cliche the things are... the more real they can be! So.. Stop saying that banal concepts are boring and outdated!


I think i have juz gone out of the topic. But the issue is still the same. we don't have to be totally self-centered and selfish but please for Heaven's sake... Make urself happy and put aside others feeling. Don't ever do thing that please people surround u but deep inside it hurts u badly..

I stop blaming myself coz it didn't work!

NO MORE THIS FACE!



sumting struck me today. i realised that in most of the situations i tended to blame myself for wutever has happened. from the smallest thing to even the largest one. i believe by blaming myself it would have turned myself to become someone better and mistake-less!

But that was not the case. Even all those intention achieved or in other word it worked but i think it was not fair for me, myself. i keep feeling bad about myself. i started to develop a very low self-esteem and i have no dignity and pride.


i have to praise myself (but obviously not to the extent that it mite sound disgusting).. i don't to have a very gloom day everyday. Lets take an example, i spent the whole day doing nothing but TV and sleep. in the nite juz before i lied my head on my pillow, i would say "Hey awie! u r a damn bad boy. U had spent the whole day doing nothing but wasting time. Let alone doing things properly!!"


So, the next day, i woke up with grief and regret. and the result was still the same. i did wut i have done! Maybe, if i turn the mistake and encourage myself to be more productive in the future, it would be sweet and effective. am i rite?


life is just once. i don't to spend it with sorrow and regret. It has to be fun and i deserve to be fun. But not to forget the borders should the religion has forbidden us from doing. By the way, i am waiting for my turn to use the toilet!

its magrib! Guess, its my turn!

OMG!!! im cooking!

this is another hot guy who cooks!

Here another breathtaking news. Awie Ahmad was spotted in the kitchen doing something that looked like cooking. It was so shocking incident!

Okay, dun be so prejudiced about me cooking. Who knows how's the taste. I know i havent cooked since i was born (except for some occasion where i helped some1 cooking or i cooked sumting extremely simple).

So today, i decided to learn something new. So determined to think that maybe, if do learn, one day i will be a great cooker! i picked my phone and dialed Abu's number as to ask him, his recipe. He once cooked for us and it was so simple and i cant help but love it.

so he directed me to do this and that. i asked him a very basic questions...and thankfully he answered without mocking me.


So i decided to cook sayur kacang Buncis(and to respect Abu's fav food, i put tomato inside) then i fried fish with lemon! or maybe it isn't called lemon! with my phone in the hand... i asked him to be directive. tell me wut to do next, wut to put next, how long was the frying... and finally, it was done.

i could not wait any longer to taste my own cooking (juz forget the consultation part).. guess wut, it was so yummylicious and i could not stop from praising my self! it was a real compliment to me.


But, i was so sorry. i didn't even let my housemate have a bite as i was afraid it would be so atrocious!

The cooking process was so fun. and i simply love the hustle..

The countdown

Like i told u... My previous post was about my pre-bufday party. it wasn't the real one..So, on the 16th June which was my real bufday, we decided to make sumting more. to do something extremely outrageous and fun!

So, we wanted to do the countdown with a real laugh! A sheer happiness la konon. i decided to turn my room to become a mini club! Guess wut we really did club! it was so fun. We played all sort of song... Dance floor song and even zapin kinda music.

We turned off the lite.. and i practically using my pen torch to shine the room. and made it feel like a real dance floor.
We danced till the very end of the day. waiting for the clock to tick to indicate a very young and gorgeous awie was turning to become another-year old awie!

I havent felt the best dance floor ever. even it was juz a room but it heated me up!
Then when the clock showed 12.00 a.m, we took the balloons and burst them off! we screamed like we had juz seen a ghost!

and afterwards, i thanked my friends for their gifts and wishes. It was so great to have all those presents and wishes. i hope we'll have another great time next year! Allah's will!

My 23rd bufday!

i have promised to tell u wut the heck had happened on my 23rd bufday. Before that i would like to deduce sumting here. I am so grateful that my 23rd bufday was so happily celebrated and seriously i had a great time. Here i would like to thank all my buddies and not to forget my family for their priceless kindness!


wut happened huh? on 15 of June. Abu and udin sacrificed their weekend and came to my apartment for a very genuine intention which was to celebrate my bufday. So, that nite, we decided to celebrate my bufday but then i suggested that the upcoming party would be our (3 of us) bufday party. Udin had his age increased in February and Abu this coming july.


"agreed" they say. So, to make it fun, we have to follow the universal way of celebrating birthday. We need food, food, food and beverages!!! Game perhaps! So off we went to Selayang Mall!

We spent half an hour to decide which cake would satisfy the 3 of us... Choosy. I wanted to have the blueberry, Udin said he didn't mind (didn't he??!) and abu adored the white one.. So, we tried to act humble. Thought that 'his' choice was better than ours.

we 'argued' and finally decided that white was great. White chocolate sounded yummylicious! Then, the next thing was the bufday cap (is it called so?), the whistle and stuff that could pop!

So, we managed to buy some decorations intended to make room and the environment so bufday'ish! then, i exclaim ' i need more food...junk food, drinks and semua la'


so the next station was Parkson. we had a transient shopping spree. took everything that looked nice! at least outside. The worst part was, abu and I did not bring enuff money so udin with his mercy decided to pay first.

okay...cut the story short. We were there in my room (with foods and cake and camere and new outfit). took pictures was our first wise move. We shot everything before the room changed its face. So, here and there u could see flash! i was so having fun with the photo shot session (if u wanna call it)


Then, it was 'makan' time. We cut the cake, together. then we opened the wine-looked drink. and had good chit chat. everything was so following the plan! and believe me. it was great!

but the best part was when we screamed out loud especially the moment i opened the drink. it did produce a very loud 'pop'!!!! Didn't forget the music that obediently follow the mood of the party. The music was inevitably dance-inducing!


we had our wishes but not to utter it out loud. we teased each other. We talked about friends that were not there (in other word back stabbed our friendss... lol!!) then we spent the whole nite chatted and we slept around 3 a.m!

Orthopaedic has just gone

I am going to my second posting next week. New thing sounds good rite but it isn't especially when u are not thru with the first one. Seriously, Orthopedic has just gone and i am not certain whether i have benefited from the very short posting.


I remember at the very 1st day of the posting... i was sure that i looked soooo groggy.. have nothing in my brain and not ready...and without realising it..now im moving to the new one..


im hoping that i am gonna do sumting good this time..

Now i declare.......

*okay..i am totally aware that this picture is not suitable for a 23-er but guess wut..i was having fun.. and the picture looks fun...


I know u won't buy such surprise anymore since i am pretty sure u have been surprised with million of things... Another wee surprise as such wont make u heartbeat speeds any faster!


So.. seriously now i am declaring that this BLOG is officially become my so-called E-Diary. Frankly speaking, i have been trying to have my own diaries since i know such thing presents in this world. So, i have bought many versions of diaries.. from the boy'ish version to even the gurlish version. Don't blame me! I know, i was a bit choosy...

there was one time, when my desire to own a diary was so sky high, i resorted to even some extra money of mine to buy a prettier one. Thinking that it might make me so interested and would be preoccupied with it. And i really did.


The problem was, when i saw my handwriting, i felt nauseated! I didn't have an appetite to open the written page. It was so making me not in the mood of writing new things!

So, recently on my 23rd birthday, i planned to buy another one since i thought it mite be the best time to have one. Off i went to a supermarket and spent few minutes to browse some diaries. In the middle of searching, my conscience stroke me. It told me that " Hey Buddy! Are serious of doing this after have multiple histories of failures before?!" I stopped looking (with a pink diary in my hand *wink)...


Then i answered myself. " Owh... it is very unfrotunate that i have to stop my desire since i have no faith in myself of succeeding this time.


Finally, out of the blue i think a blog can be a diary. I know lot of my lots have done this! So, why not following their footsteps rite?


So... Here we go...My blog becomes my Official Diary!




So..Here we go!!!!!!!

i am 23 now!!!!!

did i ever mentioned that on 16 June 2006, i was throned with a title... Mr 23-er.. I just recently get the crown and insyaAllah i'll be having it for another year..

the fun thing about being a 23-er is that... the number doesn't sound so cute anymore. I dunno i just have thee feeling that double 2 (i mean 22) is definitely a cute and cuddly number. so being a 22-er makes u look and sound younger than u really are.

so...i am going to tell u more about what happened on my birthday.. were there any surprise parties? did i get enuff room for my present? Did i cry when my loved called me and wished me a very fortunate year?

there are so much things to tell. so...but first thing first. I am goin to tell u what did i promise myself in my new year!

Okay..i decided that this year..am going to be a totally different person. Not to do something ridiculous about my face. Am juz gonna do something that always please me... and at the least please people around.


I just to wish myself a happy birthday and wait for a lot more about my new year resolution and what had happened on my birthdays! C ya!

My second driving test

My second driving test


Remember i told u the unfortunate incident where i failed my 1st driving test. Hence i have to proceed to the second one (which was not supposed to happen in any mankind in this world). I recalled the moment where i defeated by a car... A car that was supposed to oblige and follow the order (or maybe i was giving a wrong order).



Lets just forget the dreadful experience of mine. Why don’t we take a look to my glorious moment where i passed the second one. A night before (or maybe a week before) the test, i wished i could have an opportunity to juz get an illegal license. A fake one. The one that doesn’t require a single test.



I was definitely spooked to death a nite before. I could not even ingest any food or sooth my throat with any kind of beverage in this world. Everything seemed to be so dark and empty. I know it sounds like i’m exaggerating. I know! But that what was happening. I didn’t have a slightest appetite to touch my book.



I kept saying to myself... ‘Awie! Everything is going to okay. It is!!’ but the assurance words didn’t seem to help. I could feel that my hands and feet were all trembling... shaking. And my eyes were watery (were they? OMG...!! embarrassing). Seriously serious...i was so afraid.



What made it so frightful was the fact that it might cause another history of failure in my life. I was afraid that it might need me to use another money for a re-sit exam (Yeah! We were practically sitting driving). And i was required to skip classes in order to attend another classes (doesn’t that sound absurd?!)



So... Early morning... the driving instructor fetched us. I looked gloom and not in good shape (Yeah... who will after all those thoughts) We registered early. And one thing happened though. The JPJ officer called for us ‘Repeaters!!!! Make a line and pass up ur IC and L license’ So, my friends (Nani, dayah, and newly-made friend) and i queued. Embarrassed but still queued.


When passing my IC, the officer asked ‘Nombo giliran?’ i said with a very soft, monotonous, pathetic kinda voice ‘Twenty two’. He said ‘Kuat la sket!!!!’ i was dumbstruck and my eyes blinked. Nothing more to say!



After waiting for my turn... (i was one of the earliest candidates), my turn came. It turned out that i have to drive car No. 6 which made me feel grateful since i was worried that the 16 will come. To tell u the truth, my birthday is on 16... but its seemingly that 16 is definitely not my lucky number (even it makes the unluckiest number ever).



So, off i went in to the car. Did the 5 basic things, seat belt, horn, light so on and so forth. I started the engine with a Kalamullah Still frightened. (tell u wut, the car has to be started exactly at the middle of a hill.. guess we were doing bukit). Slowly i drove out of the SKEM (which was the centre of wutever).



So, in the middle of the driving.. (now i was using gear 4) the officer uttered ‘Hey... could u please drive faster??!!’ it wasn’t a request actually. It was an order. I replied (thinking that it was a request ‘owh... i can’t. I am afraid of speed’. Then, the officer was boiling with anger. ‘if u want to continue driving in this speed, u have to go down and i’ll drive u back to the SKEM’ so, i decided, it has to be it. Or else nightmares were going to be real...



So, i drove, made a U-turn...and headed back till i saw the triumph sign of passing the test. It was the SKEM. Stood proudly in front of me... welcoming another new road user! So, i passed and i thanked the officer 2 times and it made him smile.



I called my family, sister and friends...it was soooooooo fun!!! Guess what, i am an eligible driver now!

Grey's Anatomy Taught me thingS

I admit it. I am a Mc Freak! I love Grey's anatomy inside out. I have been hearing talks about this Doctors-based drama. Some said it was good... while the other think otherwise. Some commented that this drama was filled with crap of medicine and it was not even matching the real life of doctors (we are in agreement)

But, Grey's anatomy is not just a simple drama where u can laugh and cry with. It does teach the viewers hundreds of things. They are so valuable. Believe me, if are not one of the fans, u would believe me...once u got ur eyes on it!

The new seasons had been teaching me on how to speak ur words. People say, word is a great darn weapon. It can convey loves, hatreds, jealousy and for sure, it can do innumerable things to a person. So, oncee u pick ur words...diligently u will finally hit the spot that u desire! if u wish to make the person happy... then, he'll be!


I did learn that love is so powerful. It brings shine to life... brings smile to hamper tears! (am i being sentimental now?) i remember a scene when a young couples with brain cancer are trying to defeat the notorious effect of cancer to their love. They try to make love as the reason for them to stay alive! it was so touching to me! i should have wept at that particular scene..lol


Don't take things literally. This is another issue in the drama (at least that wut i understood) The scene showed was Grey who took her mother words literally. "Be extraordianry!!" she says. Then, Grey's taken it as do excel in surgery! go and kick asses and do wonderful surgeries. But her mom did not mean that. So, guess thats a lesson!