a Book Review

i loaned diz lovely book from my friend. He wanted me to read it n i was sure, must be a damn good book since i had to go n take it at KLCC.

the first 20 page was boring and dull. i duno, i perceive it dat way. coz, anyone can write that kinda stuff.. so, i guess, i shud juz read since my friend offered the book.

okay, to make story short, i came to the page where Gene (the writer) got his first and only kid... a daughter to be exact! The part that i could not forget that was when he mentioned that that little creature touched Gene's hand and he was shocked and stopped smiling. Gene did not directly tell the readers what made him stopped from enjoying the moment. He, instead made readers wait and think. So did i. I thought he hated the child.

But then, my doubt answered when, he explained to his wife (his waife realised that situation). He said (sort of la...i could not remember the exact words la) "i dunno, i juz felt sad when she touched me. Coz it made me think that i might say ' Good-bye' to her, one day!" . I dunno wat u feel about this sentence but i almost wiped my cheek in KLCC!

So, from that page, i made my decision, this is a damn great book. Thanks to aswad! So, i continued. (dgn muka semngat ni!!!) so, went on!

i started to read words by words. Felt, i immeresed my self in that book too much till i dint realize time passed! so...certain things that enlighted me were:

1. He mentioned about his wife, a very refined and nice lady. a great company and very supportive. Gene never mentioned of this lady sobbing for her husband...even for his impending death. She was strong. Made him stronger and decided to live well and enjoyed the precious and gifted moment. She could even smile when her husband mentione things that for me..saddening!so...i realised how important a partner is... SO LOOK UP FOR GOOD COMPANY! AND BE A GOOD ONE!

2. Gene words still clinging at my earlobe. He realised that people tend to ignore live in the present. I, first thought, "this is crap!". then , i pondered and re evaluate...its damn true! we tend to chase the future or even try to correct the past... It makes us forget to enjoy the present. the present which was a FUTURE and will be a PAST! So, i get it. I totally understood. and not gonna make any new mistakes. Too concentrating to my future or regretting my terrble past. i shud enjoy the life! so do u!

3. Then, he did thing which was very nice. He called it as "unwinding". Where he had the list of all people or maybe most of people he met, his acquitnaces and families! He put them in a layered-circle. Then, he wanted to meet all these people as to unwind things between two parties. He wanted to express everything. Wnated to tell them, how fortunate was he to have all these people around.

"sayang jauh di balik awan"

these guys and gurls are the only companies i got so far...Dun wanna loose them!!!!

i am listening to P. Ramlee's song....entitled "malam ku bermimpi"....i feel in need of company rite now!!!!

So, my frens keep asking me... why am i still single?!! That question sounds so simple... But to tell u the truth...is not as easy as it seems. I dont even know why am i single. Some people, when u offer this kind of question, they might say " Jodoh tak sampai lagi la"

i wont be using the same banal statement coz its not what happening to me now. Its nothing to do with JODOH (hell yeah!! Jodoh is an important point la..Allah chooses and determines everything). But, i juz dont want to blame JODOH too much and not working towards it.

I deem, the exact reason for that question is that I AM NOT LOOKING FOR SOMEONE!!! The world's rule tell u that Men are the one who suppose to do the searching for roses. Not the other way round. So, maybe there are gurls out there.... mybe.... fonder me...admire me...(like i said...MAYBE!!!)

buT SINCE I do not make any move or any flirt-like behaviour....i dont get any of them. I am not sure... I still dont have the courage to start a relationship in which for me is a big responsiblitiy.

for me...a gurl..need a REAL MAN!! Dont get me wrong...im a real man..nothing ambigous about that!!! i've double checked la..hahaaha...

my point is...to have a girlfren...u r capable of providing happines for her...drive her home with ur own car, buy her present with ur own money... Believe me, this is so romantic and gurls are gonna support me on this!!!

so, what i wanna say is that.... i dont feel ease at this situation. dont feel happy with the fact that i am all alone. No one to talk to once i am in trouble or no one to go out with. I'm not fine... I'm a desperate guy.

Got C in medicine posting Part II

so... i was aware that my dean was going to take me for the clinical exam. i did not have any problem with that. i know...whoever the examiner is...it does not matter. the only thing matters is..the way u are executing the examination and presenting ur findings and of course ur knowledge background.


so...i was the second candidate for my dean. i went once called. then, i followed him. i was pretty sure...that was cardio case... i love cardilogy. so, i thought i was gonna score and smash!!!

there, she was...a lady, pregnant lady...looked tired with her bloated belly. so, i was asked to examine the chest. i hate doint this to lady...coz, i am a young man.. she must feel awkward.


so...i examined her...smoothly ang genlty... my skills flew pauselessly... i did pretty well. when the presenting part came...i did well too...


but then, i realised..the way my dean was eyeing me... i knew... i did something wrong... He gave me "this-boy-talking-crap. so, he kept asking me "how do u know ???!!!" at first, i was able to kick off all his questions. then, my brain got exhausted.i was tired of digging my own brain.

so...i could feel the lackings in my performance. but, i was never expecting that i was gonna get an "C"...




so..when it was time to announce the result... i was confident. i would not get anything lower than a "B". so, i went inside to see my lecturer. he started with "ur theory part was fine... ur second case was good...but, Dean failed u for ur first case"

i was like screaming" what????!!!!!!!!!!!!! FAILLLLLL????" but i kept my mouth shut. listening intently. he was asking me... what was wrong with me...i could not answer. my lips sealed tightly. i juz able to make an akward smile which i thought looked terrible.

so...overall...i got an "C"...so PATHETIC!!!!! i was fortune by not failing the exam!!! otherwise...i will repeat the whole year.


so...i think...my life has to get some amendement. to make it more knowledgable

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got C in medicine Posting

this is not a good thing to shre with ppl out there...but i guess i had my lesson..which was.."study smart and not merely harder" i was trying to keep this as a secret. but...once again, my chat buddy said..it is a good thing to share this to people. first..i was like "ey!!! is this right???!!"

sounds like "membuka pekung di dada"...n showing your weakness..to tell u the truth... im too obsessed in achieveing good grades.. i mean obsessed...i hate people who love to doing this idly...lambat and bemalas2 san... i perceive it as "crappy people"

i guess..it is offending to say all these... but it is a fact that happening to me. so by telling my result to my colleagues, i realised it did make me feel humble...no more overconfident!!!

so... i juz wanna tell u what was happening in the exam day. i went fro the exam with determination and confident (or to be exact overconfident)...walking smugly and nervouslessly...
i was possesing this spirit since at the back of my mind...i was sure that i did enough ppreparation. so..."i am ready....indeed!!!"

the theory paper was good... i answered with "slight" difficulty... (so non-humble statement dowh!!)... i managed to answer with no stress except to the fact that i marked the answer in the wrong column.

im sure, i was not perfect in the theory paper... (im not that genius..my IQ is bad thou)...but at least i was sure that i did pretty wonderful.



so..i went for the 2nd day exam...again, i was overconfident despite my hectic morning...i've forgotten to bring the exam equipments. so...i was like a lunatic mother looking for her unexisted kid.... but, to cut the story short...i manage to get the tools from my junior..thanked him with SMILE...

im starting my own Blog!!! yay!!! yay!!!

i see.... nowdays..people are keep announcing that they got a blog... keep producing and posting new writings... the place where they can practically "talk" and express themselves to the whole world.. in case the ppl all over the world are reading.

it temps me a lot. one of my friends...not eactlly a friend... he is my chat buddy... he showed me his. so, i guess why not trying. and in that case he succeded to make me believe that creating ur own blog is a good thing and sheer interesting!!!

i love the fact that i can talk and write endlessly..with chance that ppl out there might come and read my products. but....it is not my goal..i dont mind if no one ever read my blog coz its not sumting that i wan to attain.

the only reason why i choose to do this bloging-thing is that..it makes me happier...from the word happier means...im already happy...so...it makes even better..

i like to do things that make me happy and in gay!!! feel like a butterfly flying under the serene sky. so..here i am...starting my blog!!!